Although he definitely seems to be feeling better, I can tell Robbie is either still not feeling 100% himself, or he is sensing change coming. (He now points to my belly when I ask him where the baby is!) He's been having a hard time staying asleep for the first part of the night lately. Tonight I rocked him after gracefully (ha!) fishing his paci out from under the crib. The poor guy is only able to sling one leg over onto my lap, and just buries his head in the crook of my arm/shoulder, but basically sits next to me on the glider instead of snuggling on my lap. His little sister has already invaded his space. He quieted right down as soon as we settled in on the glider and just stared up at my face as his eyes threatened to close. He was fighting it, I think because he wanted some mommy time. He has gotten very snuggly and affectionate lately (when I pointed out my fresh pedicure to him this evening after dinner, he crawled over to my feet and rubbed his sweet little face against my toes!).
All this makes me feel just awful about leaving him for 4 days next weekend. As Rob pointed out to me the other day, it will be the first time I am away from him overnight (much less 4 days/nights in a row!). I know I will probably miss him more than he will miss me, and everyone who is lined up to help care for him while I'm gone loves him dearly and he is very comfortable with them. But mommy is still mommy, right?
Part of it too, I'm sure, is the normal 'guilt' I'm starting to process about bringing home another baby and not having as much time to devote only to Robbie. I'm so excited for him to have a little sister, and Rob and I intentionally wanted them to be close in age. So this is what we were hoping for. It's just something you have to work out in your own mommy-mind, I guess, and get through. I know he will have such a limited understanding of what is going on, and I just pray that he makes the transition well.
If any of you moms of 2+ kids have advice to share about getting ready to bring home baby #2, please feel free to share it!
6 days and counting...